I’ve lost all faith in myself

Article Dedication

in honor of

Horst & Eugene de Salignac

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From the Rangefinder Forum

Back Alley writes:


i’ve lost all faith in myself…been in a funk, have not taken a pic in ages and not a good pic in even longer…was heading out the other day and decided to not take a camera with me…as i was leaving i heard my inner voice say to me…’well, it’s ok…you have your phone with you if needed’.
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His photos:
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http://heartsoulandacamera.blogspot.ca/

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Dunno, with street work one should seldom be in a funk. Just step out your door and opportunity is there. If you don’t live in a big city, go to where the people are.

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Selection from

De Wallen: Amsterdam’s Redlight District artist’s book by Daniel D. Teoli Jr. (Candid)

When I look at Back Alley’s work I just see your typical photo forum bullshit photos with a few OK keepers mixed in. He doesn’t take chances, he just copies what everyone else on the forum does. When I looked at his blog dates, they were so spread out and infrequent, of course he is in a funk and losing interest.

Compare Cartier-Bresson’s attitude to Back Alley’s…

“I prowled the streets all day, feeling very sprung-up and ready to pounce, determined to ‘trap’ life – to preserve life in the act of living.”

To do great work one must be excited at the prospect of freezing time. Be purpose driven, don’t do photography as an afterthought…do it as the first, foremost and only thought.

A tool Harry Callahan used to combat boredom was to mix things up.

Callahan had no time to be bored and wallow in self-pity. Callahan would go from shooting architecture to nature to nudes to motion blur and abstracts to shooting his wife to color to 35mm to large format to water and reflections to street photography to shadows. All these areas of interest helped make Callahan a better photog, by giving him a variety of projects to approach from a multitude of directions – instead of just working on a single project day in and day out, one way.

Lets look at Back Alley’s post count… 39,992

He is a computer addict. He likes the idea of being a photog and talking about it, but does not seem to like putting in the footwork hitting the pavement. He spends more time fantasizing and tickling the keyboard than pressing the button.

If Back Alley could pick his balls up off the floor and get his ass in gear, he may have a chance. But nothing can come about if he doesn’t spend more time shooting and less time fondling his keyboard.

Now, sometimes it takes time to bring home iconic photos. Weegee talks about taking 2 years to get a great drunk photo. But, during those 2 years looking, Weegee also brought home lots of great photos in many other areas.

https://archive.org/details/WeegeeTellsHow

The Rangefinder Forum banned me ages ago after only a short stay there, so I can’t answer him on the forum. The guy that runs the Rangefinder Forum knows a lot about camera fondling, but camera masturbation is it…he is a shitty photog. Most of the Rangefinder Forum members are fondlers, so not much help for Back Alley there. For the most part, you got the blind leading the blind at the Rangefinder Forum…just pitiful.

Two Blind Beggars copyright 1972 Daniel D. Teoli Jr. mr

Lets discuss portfolio theory and practice a little before discussing the funk…

Back Alley’s portfolio, it is loaded with crap. He needs to get rid of the crap and focus of great photography.  Your work should not only inspire others, it should inspire and impress you as well! If you have lots of garbage in your portfolio, of course you will be discouraged when you look at it.

When someone Google’s your name, only your best images and projects should show up. When a curator looks up your name, you don’t want them to see your non-professional work that you may be ashamed of. Or worse…junk from other photographers mixed in that could be mistaken for your work.

Don’t make the mistake that many photographers do by diluting a portfolio with lots of garbage and personal photos. They will have 20 versions of a so-so photo on Flickr. Just pick one photo. It looks like the photographer doesn’t know what they are doing. It looks like they are using the ‘shotgun approach’ in away that is hurting them, saying “Here, I don’t know if any of these are any good…you pick.”

Now, if your goal is to get ‘likes’ and ‘thumbs up’ then none of this matters. But if you aspire to be above that, if you’re serious about getting your work in museums and public collections – then what you present professionally matters a great deal.

Generally speaking, it will take more than a ‘thumbs up photo career’ to keep you motivated over a lifetime of freezing time. And going beyond the ‘garden variety thumbs up photog’ is one of the tools you can use to  keep your interest in photography alive and fresh.

Be careful where you leave online comments if you’re using your real name online or an account that is connected with your name. While it is nice to encourage upcoming photogs, the other person’s photos will show up on your image and web search. I don’t want their pix showing up on a search of my name. So, I had to stop that practice.

Here is an example. I left a comment on a blog and now his photo shows up on an image search for my name. (See photo circled in green.)

Image Search 2015 Daniel D. Teoli Jr. mr

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I like his photo and it is not a hardship on me to have his image show up in my search, still it confuses things. Even worse, I don’t want an image search of my name to show up lots of bad work that is not mine and dilutes my portfolio. It also works the same if you have your images used by others. Their images can show up in an image search for you and your images.

I made the mistake of putting some of my lower end photos on Wiki Commons. Someone used it and did a bad job on exposure and now it shows up in an image search of my name. (See the photo circled in red.) Same with another person that chopped up one of my photos. The butchered photo shows up in my search.

This is what the photo circled in red should look like.

Steeplechase Copyright 2005 Daniel D. Teoli Jr.

You want to keep a body of work focused and not all over the place…be consistent. If your work is eclectic, like Harry Callahan’s work, then your focus in your portfolio is to just show outstanding photography.

My work is in 125+ museum and curated collections around the world. When a curator looks up my name I don’t want them to have to sift through lots of junk and be turned off. So keep a clean and focused profile with Google, Bing, AVG and Yahoo.

If you don’t have individually focused portfolios, make them. I have 45+ Tumblrs.  Every project gets a Tumblr of its own. Some photogs on Flickr have thousands of pix and no focused portfolio. You will lose a curator right there. No one is going to spend half a day looking through your jumbled up work – a focused portfolio is a must.

You should be Googleing your name every week and looking at the images and searches connected with your name. If you don’t like what you see…change your M.O. Also have a complete BIO or CV easily available on the net. Don’t make the curators work too hard. A search of my name produces my bio first thing.

http://biographyofdanieldteolijr.tumblr.com/

A nice touch is to offer an illustrated bio as well as a text version. Not many artists using this technique.

https://danielteolijr.wordpress.com/2015/06/19/biography-of-daniel-d-teoli-jr/

Hollywood Blvd Selfie- infrared flash 2015 Daniel D. Teoli Jr.

Infrared flash photo

I see some websites where the photog was trying to be cute by designing an ‘artsy’ website. Some of them are very tough to navigate and are soooo slow. I just give up after a short time before I move on. No shortage of photog websites out there to view. Make it easy for curators to like your work. No one cares about your cute website if it does not work.

Some photographers like to do testing or illustrated tutorials online. In the beginning I used any old photo for the tests. Like clockwork the low end test photos started to show up in my search results. So, if I do any testing that is connected to my name I use decent photos now or I post results anonymously if I don’t want the photos to come up in my search results.

'Left Silver Gelatin Print - Right Hahnemuehle Ink Jet Print' Copyright 2013 Daniel Teoli Jr.

A comparison test of a silver gelatin print versus an inkjet print.

Left vintage silver gelatin print on Agfa Brovira paper 1972. Right inkjet print on Hahnemühle Ultra Smooth Matte paper 2012.

Now for the funk…

Here is the deal. When your in a funk, be open and push yourself by shooting in new venues.

Jay Maisel sums it up…

“If you’re out there shooting, things will happen for you. If your not out there, you’ll only hear about it.”

Lost Princess Copyright 2013 Daniel D. Teoli Jr. mr

Try shooting around the clock. Some photogs only shoot at golden or blue hour. Try something different.

Walking around all day yielded very little, then when it turned night I got The Lost Princess. (above).  I never know when I will get a keeper, but one thing is for sure, if I’m not out there hitting the pavement with camera in-hand, I won’t get a thing.

It is very important to realize the importance of the in-hand aspect of camera carrying. These camera fondlers that carry a cam on a big, bulky shoulder strap are cutting their chances at getting the stealthy shot. Keep your cam on the wrist with a thin, plain wrist strap.

Selection from 'Bikers' Mardi Gras' artists' book by Daniel D. Teoli Jr.

Time and time again Jay’s wisdom holds true. Many of my best photos are based in his credo.

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As I age it sometimes is hard to keep up the pace of my younger days. My feet, ankles and knees start giving out. But, I still do the best I can to be a witness to life…and document it.

Selection from 'Bikers' Mardi Gras' artists' book by Daniel D. Teoli Jr.

This was a one shot wonder. In the few blinks of an eye it was gone. You must always be ready…time waits for no one.

Same with the next shot, gone in an instant!

Twenty-Six Roadkills artists' book no.9 Daniel D. Teoli Jr.

TV shot

Even if one is not able to get out, photographs can still be made. I shot this from the TV. Some photogs even produce museum pieces from their TV!

http://www.mocp.org/info.php?t=objects&type=tag&s=&f=2218&tag=looking%20away

I’m still waiting to get a TV shot into a museum collection!

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The key is to be able to shoot without having to think…it must be second nature.

Selection from 'Bikers' Mardi Gras' artists' book by Daniel D. Teoli Jr.

If you don’t have the basics down…shoot your TV screen. Although there comes a time when we all have to put priciples into practice.

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Once you have the basics down and you get out there… things will happen for you!

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Once you are at one with your cam…the world is your oyster!

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 I went out for 10 minutes to test a used camera at lunchtime…now Faces of Gentrification is in a few museums’ collections.

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If I wanted to, I could just shoot infrared flash and have enough material to keep me busy…

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As long as you have your camera in-hand, opportunity is possible. And I don’t have to hide behind invisible infrared flash to get the shot either…

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Street photography is like fishing – you can put in the time and still not reel anything in. So, I have a number of projects that I shoot ‘off the cuff’ to keep me motivated by pressing the button through dry spells.

A little known book on street photography was made something along these lines…Smokers and Sleepers.

http://www.amazon.com/Smokers-Sleepers-Photographs-Mallmann-Catalogs/dp/093290002X

One of my boredom projects is shooting people while yawning…candid. It is good practice for fast shooting…a yawn does not last very long.

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Kissing is another area that can produce some nice candid photo ops while on the street.

Piercing Darkness Infrared Flash 2015 Daniel D. Teoli Jr. mr - C

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…I’m not that fussy about what they are kissing either…

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People pointing is another good subject for fast shooting.

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I have lots of pointing pix, but don’t want to put them in here.  I don’t want to sign my name to them online since they will dilute my portfolio of good work. They are something you would find on your average photo forum and nothing special. I only shoot em for fast shooting practice and out of boredom. And if something great comes about then I will keep it.

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In addition to my boredom projects, I have many serious projects to shoot for.

A project gives a photog direction and purpose. A project can showcase the photogs talents. Many great photogs are known for landmark projects they have done.

The great Zig Ziglar talked about this – “Do you want to be a wandering generality or a meaningful specific.”

In my own photo life I seldom shoot anymore unless it IS for a project or to put a shot into a institutional collection or my portfolio. I can’t afford wasting time shooting stuff that will go nowhere, just no time to fool around. Even if I stopped taking photos today I have 4+ years of photos I have not even looked through yet and tons of artists’ books to finish.

If I wanted to shoot the garden variety camera fondler photos on the photo forums I could shoot day and night 7 days a week. So, how is there any time to be bored when it comes to photography?

Here is a list of some of my completed and in-progress artist’s book projects I’m working on.  If the project is a major one it usually ends up as an artists’ book. I’d advise any funked-up photogs out there to find a project and devote themselves fully to it.

A Family Portrait – 1971

Engaging the Enemy Frigate – 2011

Anecdote – 2011

Imitation of Life – 2011

Pocket Art (Series 1 to 3) – 2012

Dye Transfer Printing from the 1950’s – 2012

Dye Stability Testing of Color Imaging Media – 2012

Portfolio 25 – 2013

Pocket Art (Series 4 to 7) – 2013

Peephole: Peering Into the World of 1970’s Hollywood and L.A. – 2013

Portfolio: Peering Into the World of 1970’s Hollywood and L.A. – 2013

Twenty-Six Roadkills – 2013

Cutters: There is nothing I hate more than myself. – 2014

Encyclopedia of Photographic & Fine Art Ink Jet-
Printing Media – 12 Volume Set – 2014 (f)

De Wallen: Amsterdam’s Red Light District – 2015

Pocket Art IR – 2015

Bikers’ Mardi Gras – 2015

Gender Benders from the 1970’s – 2015

Tonality – 2015

Skinned Alive – 2016

The End of an Era – 2016

Temple of Dreams – 2016

Meet on the Street…Shoot at the Home – 2016

Her Last Day Alive – 2016 (b)

A Day in the Life of a Drag Queen – 2016 (b)

Gone! Up in Smoke – 2017 (b)

Piercing Darkness  – 2017 (a) (d)

The Americans…60 years after Frank – 2017 (a) (d)

Dye Stability Testing of Color Imaging Media: Edition 2 – 2017 (b)

Whoop-Whoop – 2018 (b)

Gay Bar – 2018 (b)

Women are Beautiful: Beyond Snapshot Aesthetics  – 2018 (d)

180 – The Circular Fisheye at Large – 2018 (b)

180 – The Circular Fisheye at Large II – (e)

Big Mouth – 2018 (d)

Charmed – 2018 (d)

Moo! – Forthcoming (e)

Girls of the Beat Generation: The Mix – Forthcoming (c)

Girls of the Beat Generation: The Bodies – Forthcoming (c)

Raw: Girls of the Beat Generation – Forthcoming (c)

Girls of the Beat Generation: Hairstyles from the 1940’s-1960’s – Forthcoming (c)

The Rainbow Girls of the Beat Generation – Forthcoming (c)

Girls of the Beat Generation: Outtakes – Forthcoming (c)

Girls of the Beat Generation: 6 Volume Master Set  – Forthcoming (c)

Presenting Photography to Curators and Museums – Forthcoming (c)

Eight Millimeter – Forthcoming (e)

Infrared New York – Forthcoming (c)

Yum! – Forthcoming (e)

A Shadow in Time – Forthcoming (c)

A Hidden World – Forthcoming (c)

Secrets of Candid Photography – Forthcoming (c)

Eiffel Found  – Forthcoming (c)

Freezing Time: Vernacular Snapshot Aesthetics – Forthcoming (c)

Freezing Time: Vernacular Snapshot Aesthetics II – Forthcoming (c)

Manhattan 180 – Forthcoming (e)

In Their Day – Forthcoming (c)

Double Take – Forthcoming (c)

Wide Open – Forthcoming (c)

The Ghost of Christmas Past I – Forthcoming (c)

The Ghost of Christmas Past II – Forthcoming (c)

The Ghost of Christmas Past III – Forthcoming (c)

Pigskin Chronicles – Forthcoming (c)

Frosty – Forthcoming (c)

The Kennedy Files – Forthcoming (c)

All You Need is Love – Forthcoming (c)

Nursing Home Confidential – Forthcoming (c)

Klaus – Forthcoming (c)

Majorette – Forthcoming (c)

The Dinosaur Hunters – Forthcoming (c)

Balling the Jack – Forthcoming (c)

Gimme the Finger – Forthcoming (c)

Painted Ladies  – Forthcoming (c)

The Great Tit – Forthcoming (e)

Artifices of Convention – Forthcoming (c)

All about Dick! – Forthcoming (c)

Shooting Blind  – Forthcoming (c)

Beatnik Lovefest – Forthcoming (c)

Going Postal – Forthcoming (c)

Plain Brown Paper Wrapper Girls: Bohemian Models from 1940’s-1960’s – Forthcoming (c)

The Animal Lovers  – Forthcoming (c)

A Mucky Day in NYC – Forthcoming (c)

Magnifying Lens Photography – Forthcoming (e)

Take it Like a Man – Forthcoming (c)

Iconoclastic Reporter – Forthcoming (c)

Iconoclastic Reporter 2 – Forthcoming (e)

The Flappers: The Mix – Forthcoming (c)

The Flappers: Raw! – Forthcoming (c)

The Rainbow Flappers – Forthcoming (c)

Flappers: Reflections – Forthcoming (c)

The Flappers: Hairstyles from the 1915 – 1935 – Forthcoming (c)

The Flappers: Outtakes – Forthcoming (c)

 The Flappers: 6 Volume Master Set  – Forthcoming (e)

Nightwatch – Forthcoming (e)

The Pre-Beat Bohemians: Girls from the 1930’s & 1940’s – Forthcoming (c)

Bathing Beauties – Forthcoming (c)

So…You Think You Got Troubles? – Forthcoming (e)

Mirror Image  – Forthcoming (c)

The Bohemians – Forthcoming (e)

Hyper-Real HDR Street Photography – Forthcoming (e)

Blow Man Blow! Forthcoming (c)

Whoop-Te-Doo – Forthcoming (c)

Going Native! – Forthcoming (c)

Adorable – Forthcoming (c)

Hungry for Love –  Forthcoming (e)

Before Photoshop (Abridged) – Forthcoming (c)

Before Photoshop (Unabridged)- Forthcoming (c)

Pitch Black Crapshoot – Forthcoming (c)

Trucker Fags in Denial: A Closer Look – Forthcoming (e)

Harem – Forthcoming (c)

Vegas Undercover – Forthcoming (c)

Bikers’ Mardi Gras: Revisited – Forthcoming (e)

Pucker Up! – Forthcoming (e)

Rear View  Forthcoming (e)

The Broken Leg Variations – Forthcoming (c)

The Honeymooners – Forthcoming (c)

A Shot in the Dark – Forthcoming (e)

Blinded by the Light – Forthcoming (e)

Beatnik Lovefest II – Forthcoming (e)

The Lovers – Forthcoming (c)

America…in T shirts – Forthcoming (c)

Snob Repeal – Forthcoming (c)

New York Wide Open  – Forthcoming (e)

Bohemian Nights  – Forthcoming (e)

Nosing Around – Forthcoming (e)

In Motion – Forthcoming (c)

Strangers in Paradise – Forthcoming (c)

50 Photos – Forthcoming (e)

Hijabs of New York – Forthcoming (e)

Day for Night – Forthcoming (e)

You Just Gotta Have Balls! – A Street Photographer’s Manifesto  Forthcoming (e)

New York, New York – Forthcoming (e)

Pointers – Forthcoming (e)

Infrared Street Photography – Forthcoming (e)

ARTZ – Forthcoming (e)

IR in Motion: Greeley Square Park – Forthcoming (e)

IR in Motion: On Broadway – Forthcoming (e)

Piercing New York – Forthcoming (e)

Tough Women – Forthcoming (c)

Guerilla (Warfare) Photography – Forthcoming (c)

Mucking Around Manhattan IR – Forthcoming (c)

Humans of New York…No BULLSHIT! – Forthcoming (e)

Novelette – Forthcoming (e)

Metro IR – Forthcoming (e)

Gone Girls – Forthcoming (e)

Artsy Type…No Principles – In Development

What is Spontaneous Bop Prose… – In Development

Thirty-six views of Bison – In Development

With Due Respect Beloved One – In Development

Notes:

(a) Under consideration for a 2016 Guggenheim Fellowship.  Edit 4.7.16 – Notified of Fellowship rejection from Guggenheim Foundation.

(b) Principal photography complete – pro forma book printing schedule.

(c) Principal photography complete – pending book printing, no date scheduled.

(d) Photography in progress – pro forma project completion date.

(e) Photography in progress – ongoing, no completion date set.

(f) World record for largest set of hand-printed artist’s books ever produced.

Fourth of July 2013 CV Daniel D. Teoli Jr. mr

OK…I’ve given you some tools I use to keep out of the funk zone. If nothing here resonates with you, start selling some of your usless photo gear your not using on eBay, clean up your archives and get caught up on your post processing. Study new photo techniques, do some experimentation or go to some photo shows / art exhibits.

In the end, you may also want to do some soul searching about your photography. As I’ve told you before, the hardcore street photog is going to have a different attitude, personality and ego than an anal landscaper or startrail photog. The street photog may not be as anal as the tripod photog when it comes to technical aspects, but their nature shows a different anal aspect when it comes to their personality.

The street photog may have to work outside of normally accepted societal conventions if they want to get the shot. As such, that special ‘anal aspect’ the street photog must posses can be summed up in the vernacular thusly…success on the street sometimes involves being an asshole.

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Holy Water Bowl St Patrick’s Cathedral NYC (Candid)

Selection from The Americans…60 years after Frank artist’s book

by Daniel D. Teoli Jr.

The photog usually does not set out to be an asshole, but when you concentrate only on ‘getting the shot’ it is a natural offshoot of the process. Now, on the positive side, the better you are at candid work, the less assholeish you need to be.

If you can’t make a go of it, you may be in the wrong art. When I was a young photog growing up in L.A. I wanted to be a studio / fashion photog. Finally it sunk in that I had no talent for those areas – all my talent was in street / doc photography. It was important to my work and inner peace the day I accepted this. Once it sunk in I took to street photography like a fat kid eating pizza, just devouring it…and never looked back!

Good Luck and don’t forget the secret formula…layoff the keyboard, hit the pavement and press the button more!

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Women of the Beat Generation - Daniel D. Teoli Jr. Archival Collection

From Girls of the Beat Generation

A forthcoming 6 volume artist’s book series by social documentary photographer Daniel D. Teoli Jr.

https://danielteolijr.wordpress.com/2016/04/21/girls-of-the-beat-generation-artists-book/

De Wallen Graffiti 2014 Daniel D. Teoli Jr.